The Chronicles

To Sleep To Dream...

2007-02-01T18:37:39Z

I've barely slept in three days. I'm in this big quandary of sleep. I can't sleep at night, but I'm exhuasted during the day. And then when I do sleep at night, usually around 7 am or so when I can actually fall asleep, I sleep all day. So I go in this crazy fucked up cycle (or lack of cycle) involving oversleeping and undersleeping, all mixed in with a large dose of stimulants to keep me pumping during the day (they're persrcribed...don't get your shorts in a bunch)

And then when I'm up at night I am too tired to concentrate and do work, but not sleepy enough to actually sleep. Then I sleep through my classes during the day, or sleept through time which should be spent working. And then having no energy makes it really hard to perform at rugby practice... *sigh* I need a remote that controls my sleep.

I've also barely eaten in a few days. I attribute that to a virus...but it's still annoying having no appetite.

I'm quite the pity party!

On the plus side: I just found a really cool book at the bookstore called "Clay" about the history of clay and people's relationship with it over time. My parents even agreed to pay for it! It doesn't get better.

I also have a lot of rugby song verses brewing for the party tonight. I hope I can make it, being sick and sleep deprived. But I think I'll brave it. Gotta bust out these verses! I have rhymes for panella...glerum...julia...breanna...keish...and all depraved and disgusting of course. I mentioned to my mom (I called her when I couldn't sleep last night to commiserate -- she is up late often herself) that I was at least getting some rugby song writing done. She was like, ooh, you should email them to us! And I was like, um, mom, I don't think you want to hear these. I often wish I could hit my Dad up for help sometimes though when I'm stuck on a verse because he's a really good song writer. But I don't think he'd really approve, so to speak. I did sing him whores and housewives one time though, and he laughed in spite of himself, but then was like, that's INAPPROPRIATE (point being?). As you can see...I take my rugby song writing very seriously :)

Oh! Speaking of which, here's a little rugby ditty I wrote. Sing to the tune of the verse for Aeroplane by The Red Hot Chili Peppers

I like pleasure spiked with pain
and rugby is my favorite game
it's my favorite game
pleasure spiked with pain
those bloody ruggers always spiked with pain

A little dark sounding...but I think it's funny (it's not supposed to be dark sounding...that's just how the real song goes..."pleasure spiked with pain" that is)

On a side note, TRCH are really good in concert. I saw them in Portland back in the day with my lovelies, Jade and Ariel. Good times. Seems so long ago. I guess that's because it was!

Damnit. I have class in an hour, and errands to do between now and then. I think I'll just keep rambling on Live Journal instead of doing the errands...because damn once I sit in my chair I don't want to get up. Okay that's about it for now!

Oh you better start swimming or you'll sink like a stone...

2006-11-06T23:31:05Z

Rachel better start swimming or she'll sink like a stone, especially because she did shitty on her last midterm and essay. It's no one's fault but mine. I didn't study enough or spend enough time on the paper. I didn't expect good grades, but I'm for whatever reason ridiculously frustrated with myself for getting them. I can't seem to get motivated! I'm being a slacker, and I'm reaping the damn consequences.

I'm tired.

Maybe I should stop sleeping all the time. That might help. Just maybe.

They were digging a new foundation in Manhatten....

2006-09-26T17:52:51Z

They say that alchoholics, are always alchoholics, even if they're dry as my lips, for years. Even if they're stranded on a small desert island, with no place in 2000 miles to buy beer, and I wonder, are they different, are they different, have they changed, what they're about. Or are they just still liars, with nothing to lie about.

So I'm in neuroscience right now and I'm really not paying attention, which is a shame considering I have a test next week. What the fuck is a meningi, anyways? And why do I care? I'm gonna be a ceramics professor, bitches.

I bruised my sternum and possibly ribs, so I hurt like a bitch. Props to thalia for being so badass and not expressing pain with her bruised ribs, cause holy shit this hurts! Anyways, I won't be practicing for a little while which is great because a. I don't have to do fitness, b. I don't have to do fitness, and c. I have time for homework, but is TERRRRRIBBBBBLLLEEE because a. I don't get to tackle peopole and b. I don't get to hit people on other occasions, including the playing of games. And we actually have a competitive game this weekend! But it's not like I play A side. (Not complaining -- don't worry!)

That's all for now

She Dreams in Color She Dreams in Red

2006-08-26T23:23:19Z

Yeah you know grey is my favorite color
I felt so symbolic
Yesterday
If I knew Picasso
I'd find myself a grey guitar and play

So it's even fewer days until Providence, and I'm starting to feel the pressure of moving, packing, financial crap, and starting anew in a new place at a new school. I have a few months under my belt at Brown, but I still have the jittery- butterflies-in-my-stomach-freshman feeling. I just really hope everything works out well.

6 days til provi!!

2006-08-24T07:46:50Z

Bella!!

2006-08-15T23:42:48Z

Oh yeah! Bella!!

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Disarm you with a smile...

2006-08-15T23:39:33Z

So I'm back in Corvallis after a very lovely summer in Portland. I worked at Vespa Portland, which was rather fun (for a job) and made some good money. I also got an awesome new scooter named Bella (a lovely vintage green granturismo) at an awesome price (see picture). It was great hanging out with Arielle, Jade, Jonathan, Auroroa, Dan, Graham, Darren, Margaret, and compnany. I miss it now, and I'll continue to miss it, I'm sure.

So, now I'm back in Corvallis and it sucks, ROYALLY! I have very little to do. In fact, so little that I actually went to the library and got books to do RESEARCH (it's summer for God's sake!) on an op ed article about Israel. It'll be another glorious chapter in the book of Rachel's Rants, and I'll surely force you to read it at a later date.

I got some books at Borders, too! I got a poker book called Small Stakes Hold 'Em, reccomended by Graham, so that hopefully I'll suck a little less profoundly and not squander away my paychecks. It's really complicated though!! It's hard for me to understand it, which makes me worry that it will be even harder to understand my neuroscience text book once I get back to Brown. In short, I'm not really at my cognitive peak right now, so I'm worried.

I also got another Dan Brown book called Deception Point. It's hilarious looking -- but I'm sure it's not meant to be funny. It's hilarious in that it looks EXACTLY like his other books. A smart heroine teams up with a scholar to solve a scientific mystery! But I figure, I loved his other books, so I'll probably love more of the same. Anyways.

Stuff and stuff and stuff

2006-07-18T08:51:22Z

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now. (Sadly)	× I don't watch much TV these days. (I live in NoPo and don't have transportation. What do you think?)	✓ I own lots of books.
× I wear glasses or contact lenses.	✓ I love to play video games.	✓ I've tried marijuana.
✓ I've watched porn movies. (Have I ever)	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes. (Sometimes! Ha!)	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. (for the better)	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

* * * * *

✓ I have broken someone's bones. (RUGBY! RUGBY!)	× I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.	✓ I hate the rain.
✓ I'm paranoid at times. (I guess so)	× I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.	✓ I need/want money right now.
✓ I love sushi. (I work next to Mio Sushi! Where do YOU work, sucka!)	✓ I talk really, really fast. (like, really)	× I have fresh breath in the morning.
× I have long hair.	× I have lost money in Las Vegas.	✓ I have at least one sibling.
× I was born in a country outside of the U.S.	× I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.	× I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
× I like the way that I look.	× I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.	✓ I am usually pessimistic.
✓ I have a lot of mood swings. (what ME? are YOU crazy? ME NEVER?)	✓ I think prostitution should be legalized.	× I slept with a roommate.
✓ I have a hidden talent. (I can queef (or however it's spelled) on command)	× I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.	✓ I have a lot of friends. (:))
× I have pecked someone of the same sex.	× I enjoy talking on the phone.	× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
✓ I love to shop and/or window shop.	× I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
✓ I have a mobile phone.	× I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.	✓ I've rejected someone before.
✓ I currently like/love someone. (I currently fuck someone. does that count?)	× I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.	✓ I want to have children in the future.
✓ I have changed a diaper before. (adventures in babysitting)	× I've called the cops on a friend before.	✓ I'm not allergic to anything.
✓ I have a lot to learn. (we all do)	✓ I am shy around the opposite sex. (sometimes...)	× I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
× I have at least 5 away messages saved.	✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before. (Try? New Orelans, people..)	✓ I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past. (I rue the day)
× I own the "South Park" movie.	× I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.	× I enjoy some country music.
✓ I would die for my best friends. (I think I would...)	✓ I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.	× I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
✓ I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. (And it's a day when i finally look normal!)	× I have dated a close friend's ex.	× I am happy at this moment.
✓ I'm obsessed with guys. (ugg)	✓ Democrat.	× Republican.
✓ I don't even know what I am.	✓ I am punk rockish. (I am also a poser)	× I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
✓ I study for tests most of the time. (All the time! Is there any other way to live? Do I go to class all the time? That's another story...)	× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.	× I can work on a car.
✓ I love my job(s). (Yeah, I like my job. I get to talk about scooters!)	× I am comfortable with who I am right now. (is anyone ever really?)	✓ I have more than just my ears pierced.
✓ I walk barefoot wherever I can.	× I have jumped off a bridge.	✓ I love sea turtles.
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup. (gross)	✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream. (now i just need to identify what it is)	× I am proficient on a musical instrument.
✓ I hate office jobs.	✓ I went to college out of state. (LA, RI, (BRUNO!!!!!!!!!!!!!))	× I am adopted.
× I am a pyro.	✓ I have thrown up from crying too much.	✓ I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
× I fall for the worst people.	✓ I adore bright colours.	× I usually like covers better than originals.
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays. (I don't really give a shit)	✓ I can pick up things with my toes.	× I can't whistle.
✓ I have ridden/owned a horse.	× I still have every journal I've ever written in.	✓ I talk in my sleep. (like a fox!)
× I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.	✓ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. (try is the operative word here)	✓ I wear a toe ring.
× I have a tattoo.	✓ I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with. (HAHA, HE GOT FIRED!)	× I am a caffeine junkie. (i am a ritalin junkie)
✓ I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all. (Partially at least)	× If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder. (you sick fuck)	✓ I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better. (tru dat)
✓ I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner. (sure)	✓ I'm an artist. (watch out da Vinci)	× I am ambidextrous.
✓ I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed. (Yes, but pillows rather than stuffed animals)	× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.	× I have terrible teeth. (I hate my teeth)
× I hate my toes. (my toes are fine thank you)	× I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.	× I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
✓ I have lived in either three different states or countries. (CA, OR, LA, RI. Represent!)	× I am extremely flexible.	× I love hugs more than kisses. (um....why isn't sex an option in this question?)
× I want to own my own business.	× I smoke.	✓ I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else. (case in point)
× Nobody has ever said I'm normal.	✓ Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.	× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons. (watch out bitch)
× I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.	✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me. (way more than is healthy)	✓ I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
✓ I have played strip poker with someone else before. (BAD memories!)	✓ I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.	× I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
× I can't stand being alone. (When else am i going to jack off? Come on now)	✓ I have at least one obsession at any given time. (several)	✓ I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again. (welcome to the wide world of wrestling)
✓ I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment. (OH GOOD FUCKING LORD)	× I'm a judgmental asshole.	✓ I'm a HUGE drama-queen. (huge)
× I have travelled on more than one continent.	× I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.	✓ I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am. (like an addiction)
× I am a Libertarian. (gross)	× I can speak more than one language.	✓ I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be. (I am a champion sleeper)
× I would rather read than watch TV. (lazy)	× I like reading fact more than fiction.	✓ I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do. (who the fuck hasn't?)
× I have no piercings.	× I have spent the night in a train station or other public place. (I so almost did! Arielle I blame you! (lol))	× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.	✓ There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.	✓ I like most animals better than most people. (sorry, it's true. oliver and suzie love me more than you do)
✓ I own a collection of retro games consoles. (represent)	× The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.	× I have hit someone with a dead fish.
✓ I am compulsively honest. (to a fault)	× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.	× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.	× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.	× I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.	× I dislike milk.	× I obsessively wash my hands.
× I always carry something significant around with me.	× Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.	× I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.	× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.	✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird. (hahahaa)
✓ I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time. (I've been clinically dead most of my life)	× Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed. (empathetic to a fault)	× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.	✓ I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing. (gotta make a living, homey)	× I don't like to chew gum.
× I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.	× I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car. (Scooter, my friend, scooter!)	✓ I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years. (I have 20 year old angst motha fucka)
✓ I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.	× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly. (Not weekly, but I have been known to play...)	✓ I love to sing. (Now if only i could)
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.	× I have a custom-built computer.	✓ I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it. (Johnny Depp's babies. Right here. In my uterus.)
✓ I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.	× I've gone skinny-dipping. (Sadly no)	✓ I've performed in three plays. (More than 3!)
✓ I enjoy burritos. (That was profound)	× I'm Irish and loving it. (Jews are better)	× I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin!	× Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'. (It's pretty split. I need both.)	× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else. (omg never)
✓ I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes. (Do I mother fuckin ever)	✓ I sleep more than 12 hours a day. (Narcolepsy fuckin ROCKS!)	✓ I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough. (the story of my life)
× I need more time to myself. (TOO MUCH TIME TO MYSELF!! ACK!)	× I wish I was more open-minded.	× I hope that I go really prematurely grey.
✓ I download songs from the internet.	× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.	✓ I say random things to freak people out. (It's surprisingly fun)
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.	× I love playing Truth or Dare. (When I was 12)	× I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it. (What kind of freak do you think i am?)
✓ Music helps me remember that I am not alone.	✓ Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.	✓ I think this survey is particularly long.
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.	× I can only hate someone that I love.	× I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.

napoleoninraggs @ 2006-06-02T19:00:00

2006-06-03T02:00:20Z

Jane says I aint never been in love
She don’t know what it is
She only knows when someone wants her

I wonder if he wants me
I only know they want me

She gets mad
And she starts to cry
She takes a swing, but
She can’t hit

She don’t mean no harm
She just don’t know
Don’t know
Don’t know
What else to do about it

Jane says
Jane says

That Yogurt Hill

2006-05-31T04:14:01Z

WORK

I’m at work at Yorgurt Hill and just cannot WAIT for this job to be over. I have to close today and tomorrow, but other than that, I think I’m home free. I actually had to help my boss clean her house yesterday, along with the rest of the staff. It was nice to meet the other girls who work here (we don’t work shifts together), and we could bond over how utterly crappy it was to have to CLEAN HER HOUSE. But my god, we had to CLEAN HER HOUSE. And for minimum wage! I wasn’t aware that was part of my job description. But oh well. I guess that’s part of working for a small family business.

I also put my skills to the test and helped her refinish and reupholster her dining chairs. That was a lot of work. Perhaps she’ll pay me a higher wage for those hours. But of course I can’t bring myself to ask for it. For as confrontational of a person as I am, I simply cannot say no to this woman.

One time she called, and as I was answering the phone I thought to myself “please don’t ask me to come in tonight. It’s my night off. I’m exhausted. I’m totally saying no if she asks me to come in. Please don’t ask me to work tonight.” 2 minutes later the words “I’ll be there in ten minutes” were coming out of my mouth. HOW DOES SHE DO IT TO ME? SHE HAS SUPER POWERSSS!!!

MYSPACE

I have entered the world of the myspace freaks! Yes! It is true! So check her out. (www.myspace.com/rachelmckenna (arent’ I creative).

ARM

I HATE MY FUCKING ARM! AND WRIST! AND HAND! AND SHOULDER! AND KNEE! AND ANKLE! AND OTHER WRIST! Nothing on me works! Worst body ever.

Is it time for SOA?

2006-05-30T18:55:25Z

I have a confession to make. I have become addicted to The Young and the Restless. Is it time for Soap Operas Anonymous?

It all started innocently. It follows The Price is Right, so it was only natural to keep watching tv and see the show. Soon, my casual viewing experience became a regular part of my morning! Then, it became an addiction. I knew it was official when I was in the check out line at Fred Meyers when I saw a copy of Soap Opera Digest that said "PHYLISS: PREGNANT," and I thought *gasp!!!* "PHYLISS PREGNANT WITH NICKS BABY?!?! WHAT ELSE CAN GO WRONG FOR SHARRON AND NICK'S AILING MARRIAGE!!" And then I knew I was hooked. Alas!!!

Stuff and Stuff and Stuff

2006-05-24T19:25:35Z

Graham’s drunk. Jade’s drunk (happy birthday Jade!). I’m not drunk!! I should be! But I’m at work, killing time until I can go sweep the floors (can you feel the excitement?!)

COUNTDOWN TO PORTLAND

I’m going to be in Portland this summer. Moving day is June 3rd. So watch out tiger, here I come. I’m either living in Micah and company’s basement, or in this really nice place in North Portland. Or somewhere else, possibly, depending on what comes up.

I’m really excited! There’s also a chance I’ll be there for the whole year (if I don’t get back into Brown). Part of me feels like I’m not ready to go back and that I should stay in Portland for the year, but I don’t know if that’s smart thinking or cold feet. Either way, I find out later this week if I even have the option of going back to Brown this fall. I’m nervous!

I’m trying to get a gig at the Vespa Dealership in town, which would be awesome. I’d get to sell and put together Vespas. I have a feeling there’s some paperwork to be done as well though. They keep alluding to that. BUT I might not get the job if I’m only there for 2 months, which is part of what makes me think it’d be cool to stay all year. But a year is a long time, and do I really want to be a 21 year old sophomore?

Oliver's Song!

2006-05-13T17:56:10Z

If I had a cow,
I'd shake it in the mor-or-ning,
I'd shake it in the evening,
All over this land!

I'd shake out danger!
I'd shake out war-ar-ning
I'd shake out the love between, my brothers and my sisters,
All over this land!

If I had a bone,
I'd chew it in the mor-or-ning
I'd chew it in the evening,
All over this land!

I'd chew out danger!
I'd chew out war-ar-ning
I'd chew out the love between, my brothers and my sisters,
All over this land!

If I had a watermelon,
I'd destroy it in the mor-or-ning,
I'd destroy it in the evening,
All over this land!

I'd destroy out danger!
I'd destroy out war-ar-ning
I'd destroy out the love between, my brothers and my sisters,
All over this land!

Well I've got a cow
And I've got a bone
And I've got a watermelon to destroy!
All over this land!
It's the cow of justice!
It's the bone of fre-e-dom,
It's the watermelon of love between, my brothers and my sisters,
All over this land

It's been jolly

2006-05-12T20:49:46Z

It's been jolly. A jolly good time since I last updated you. So here's an update for those with enough time on their hands to actually read this. Actually it's been a pretty lousy time, but "it's been jolly" is a more inviting title than "it's been lousy." Oh SNAP. I snaked you into reading this with my alluring title. How do you feel now, yo?

I got my Antonio back yesterday. He has a few scratches and needs a bath but is in overall good health. I took him back on H-99, and it was a nice ride. The funnest thing is waving to other motorcyclists. Ah, such an exestencial bond we have.

I'm hopefully going to be living in Portland this summer, possibly with Arielle and Posse. It means either selling my beloved Antonio (see above) or remaining in credit card debt, but I've come up with a very good way to rationalize either. Hapiness is more important than scooters (*gasp*) or money. And I'm not happy here. Maybe if that putz from Louisiana ever pays me the money she owes me for the car I sold her than I can avoid both. But we alllll know that's not happening.

I've been spending my hours watching endless episodes of Sex and the City and secretly wishing that was my life. Hip, fun, in the city, guys, friends, sex, careers, general happiness.

I've been having more problems with my website than you can shake a very problematic stick at. My account got suspended after I was being too successful and got too many orders in one day. The guy handling my account still won't call me back to release the funds owed to me, which means I've been having to put all of the orders on my credit card and am going to have to pay a big ass interest charge on the money this month. I'm having so many logistical and delivery problems, not to mention a bunch of bratty angry customers screaming down my throat. I'm not sure it's worth it an am actually considering quitting the business. I've profited about $500, that may be enough to call it quits. But we'll see. If I can get my account approved (necessary here) for a higher amount I may be able to continue on. Bum bum.

So I officially broke up with Graham. Turns out he's been seeing another girl for about a month and didn't tell me. We were in an "open relationship," so we could see other people but he was supposed to tell me when he met someone, which he didn't. So needless to say I feel pretty hurt and strung-along, and angry about sitting by the phone for the past month waiting for a call, being told he still wanted to see me when in reality he didn't. He told me after Arielle, my best friend, who is good friends with Graham, which is of course now awkward, started throwing lit matches at him. I wonder how long it would have taken had he not been in danger of lighting on fire.

I never really intended on seeing other people. I pursued it a little bit, without much avail, but wasn't really motivated to or really even that interested. I'm just not really that kind of girl. Ironically, Graham and the new girl had a lovely picnic the other day. Ironic being the number of times I suggested that we have a picnic. According to my sources, I think this is a case of Hubble and the Katie girls. So all I have to say to you is this. You're girl is lovely, Hubble. (Watch more Sex and the City if you don't get that).

And that is all.

Sigh

2006-04-08T16:20:47Z

Maybe I don't hate all boys but I certainly don't understand them. We live in different zip codes my friend.

That's right, you.

2006-04-08T07:36:27Z

That's right, I hate you. I hate all boys. The only boy I like is a 11-month-old chiuaua-dauchshaund named Oliver. And a now deceased 15-and-3/4-year-old carin terrier-dauchshaund named Nar. Yes, his name was Nar.

Anyways, back to my point, I hate the entire male gender. Unless you answer to Olivernicus or Mr. Nar. Otherwise, you're on Rachel's gradually growing "I hate you" list.

Oh, Bobby D....

2006-03-27T23:07:59Z

THE PUMP DON'T WORK CAUSE THE VANDALS TOOK THE HANDLES.

That is all.

A C-Town Weekend

2006-03-25T19:04:13Z

No portland for this weekend. I think I'll spend some time hanging out with J TO THE ADE and other cohorts and working a lot on my website.

But being home this weekend is making me reflect on last weekend, and how I didn't really write about it or appreciate it. It was so cool! I was up in Portland the whole weekend. A nice taste of independence. On Friday and part of Saturday I hung out with Graham. Saturday evening I went out to dinner at a GREAT southern restaurant that Micah works at with REL and family, which was really fun. Then we went to a little birthday shindig, which we both agreed was a little lame. But it was fun to get out and really fun to chat and catch up. That has been overdue.

Then on Sunday I went to the peacemarch with my dad, which was a blast. First, though, I met some cool people in Pioneer Square bustin out some Hackey Sack. I need to get a new one and fine tune the ol' skills. Then they went to the march too, but I was with my dad and the labor/union contingent, so I marched with them.

It was really fun. We marched from a park downtown to the waterfront, chanting and everything. Then during the rally I of course got hungry, so that took priority over that whole speaker thing. Then the real march began. I swear, it was right out of New Orleans!! The part we were in had this incredible band, and people in costumes, and on stilts. We were all dancing, and bouncing around. It was really fun. I bet there were some N'awlins refugees there, I could just feel it.

Anyways, today will be a chill day. Maybe I'll read or watch a movie, get a few errands done or something. I also think I'm coming down with something, so I'm looking forward to the opportunity to chill. Not that I don't get it all the time anyways. Hehehe.

Shelter From the Storm

2006-03-23T03:10:18Z

Cause in another lifetime, one of toil in blood, when blackness was a virtue, and the road was full of mud. I come in from the wilderness, a creature void of form. Come in, she said, I'll give ya, Shelter From the Storm.

If I pass this way again you can rest assured, I'll always do my best for her, on that I give my word. In a world of steel and death of men who are fighting to be warm. Come in, she said, I'll give ya, Shelther From the Storm.

Not a word was spoke between us, there was no risk involved. Nothing up till that point, had even been resolved. Try imagining a place where it's always safe and warm. Come in, she said, I'll give ya, Shelter From the Storm

I was burned out from exhaustion, burried in the hail. Poisened in the bushes, and blown out on the trail. Hunted like a crocidile, ravaged in the corn. Come in, she said, I'll give ya, Shelter From the Storm

Suddenly I turned around, and she was standing there. With silver bracelets on her wrists and flowers in her hair. She walked up to me so gracefully, and took my crown of thorns. Come in, she said, I'll give ya, Shelter From the Storm.

Now the bonds are broken, but they can be retied. By one more journey to the woods, the holes where spirits hide. It's a never ending battle, for a piece that's always torn. Come in, she said, I'll give ya, Shelter From the Storm.

Well the deputy walks on hot nails, and the preacher rides a mount. But nothing really matters much, it's doom alone that counts. And the one-eyed undertaker, he blows a futile horn. Come in, she said, I'll give ya, Shelter From the Storm.

Well I've heard newborn babies crying like a moaning dove. And old men with broken teeth stranded without love. Do I understand your question man, is it hopeless and forlorn? Come in, she said, I'll give ya, Shelter From the Storm.

And now there's a wall between us, something there's been lost. I took to much for granted, I got my signals crossed. And just to think it all again, and none of it for more. Come in, she said, I'll give ya, Shelter From the Storm.

In a little hilltop village, they gambled for my clothes. I buggin for salvation, inject, give me a legal dose. I offered up my innocence, got repaid with scorn. Come in, she said, I'll give ya, Shelter From the Storm

Well I'm living in a foriegn country, but I'm bound to cross the line. Beauty walks on a razor's edge, someday I'll make it mine. If I could only turn back the clocks to when god and her were born. Come in, she said, I'll give ya, Shelter From the Storm.

Crucify the insincere tonight

2006-03-21T06:34:30Z

What if no ones watching?
What if no ones watching?

*Sigh* It's the end of another long basically wasted day in which I accomplished very little. Went to a doctors appointment, made some phone calls, beat my dad at Soul Caliber. Those are the mighty and triumphant feats of my day. Congrats Rachel.

Anyways, the weekend was cool. Went up to Portland. Again, would definitely dig being on my own up there this summer. But alas. I think I will sign up for a class at OSU for the spring though.

Sorry, this is really boring.

It's been almost 3 weeks in the sling so I can go back to driving and working soon! Yay! More nights of sweeping floors and getting NO TIPS!! People just don't appreciate frozen yogurt service these days. Those crazy kids. No, but really, I'm seriously going to chop off the heads of the couple that comes in on Banana Split Mondays 10 minutes before closing wanting specialized banana splits and then not giving me a tip at all. They'll rue the day!

Fun Quotes!

2006-03-18T22:44:31Z

I'm up in Portland for the weekend. Currently hangin out. Chillaxin out max. Relaxin all cool. I really want to take a class up at PSU this summer and get my own place somewhere, or, if not that, a temp place with the university or something (not really sure how that works). But my wallet and my parents are against it. Scurvy rogues. I may take a class at OSU or LB this spring, just to give myself something to do, especially while the 'ol arm is in a sling. Which reminds me...I should check on my scooter.

Anyways, enough babbling! A couple fun quotes

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-Hey Rachel, are you watching the March Madness basketball games?
-Chh, I'm a wrestler. I don't bounce balls, I break balls
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Rachel: See, I call my dogs Olivernicus and Sue-Bop-Shabangitty-Boo, and he calls his dogs Kaiser Uberhound and Frauline Gretta.
Katie: Wow, you guys are perfect for each other.
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Rachel: I used to be really good at listening to my friends when they told me I was cut-off, then I got to Tulane, and it all went out the window.
Graham: Yeah, cut-off? Challenge accepted!
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If my life were a movie, there would be a sunset, then the camera would pan away...

2006-03-16T20:08:03Z

I'm kind of nervous because coming up in May is my readmit "hearing" for Brown this fall. And I REALLY want to go back. I'm certainly enjoying the time I get to spend with my friends back in Oregon, but I really want to get back on track with my education, and move forward in my damn life instead of all of this pause shit. Anyways, I have to write up a report of my activities and all this other stuff and hope it impresses them enough that they let me back in before the requisiste 2 semesters of medical leave are up. *sigh* :(

Miner for a Heart of Gold

2006-03-12T18:25:33Z

I want to live
I want to give
I've been a miner for a heart of gold

It's these expressions
I never give
That keep me searching for a heart of gold.

So it's been a while since my last Live Journal update. I crashed my beloved Vespa, named Antonio, and broke my beloved elbow, conveniently named elbow. So needless to say I've been behind on my typing-related activities. Luckily my bike is (most likely) not totaled, and it'll just be a few more weeks until I'm out of this sling. The break was minor, and I was wearing my badass motorcycle body armor esque gear so nothing else got injured or even scraped. I've however (to my disapointment) scrapped the idea of taking the scoot on I-5 at the realization of just how little I am on that thing. I always feel really big on it, like I might as well be riding a Honda Silverwing or Piaggio BV500, but alas, I'm on a 230 lb ET4, and as shiny and pretty as he may be, those trucks just might not see me, retro reflective vest at all. See, the thing about retro reflective gear is one must be able to visually locate said gear in order to reap its light reflecting benefits of the vest. And that just might not happen. In which case my new name will be pancake. Alas.

So the plan is, use Antonio 'round town and on 20 and 99 and save up for a Vepsa GT200, or maybe even GS 250 or Piaggio BV500. We'll see. Meanwhile I'm supposed to be saving up for a car, not to mention paying down my stupid credit card on which i accrued debt like a stupid stereotypical teenager with a shiny piece of plastic in their hand. Thank god for 0 APR...for now.

I had a great weekend. I went up to Portland to see Grahamsta. We went down to Schmizza, and then toured the Chinese Gardens. They were really beautiful and peaceful. The ground is tiled with a beautiful parqued mosaic of stones and tiles. The Garden is more of a Grand Chinese Estate than an actual garden, which is really quite fascinating. You go through all of the rooms, and see what a historical estate would look like, rooms, garden, and all. No Koi in the Koi Pond though. I'll have to do my Koi fishing next time. We then ran into Margaret and Jade which was a jolly good time! I love those guys.

That reminds me. There's this big Koi pond in one of my doctors office's buildings. It bugs the shit out of me. It just seems so unnecessary and indulgent. And considering I don't like the doctor, it doesn't take much for me to find another reason not to like her. But who am I to chastise people for being indulgent, ms. chocolate fondue fountain.

That's about all. I'll update more lata! Cheers folks.

Wah!!! Poor baby me

2006-03-01T22:52:37Z

It's my birthday today! Yay! I'm 20! Don't feel any different...

I have SO MANY errands to do, but I'm feeling really lazy and would really much rather stay home and work on my website and play Soul Caliber than go to the bank and the DMV. But alas! Alak! I must!!!

GRAHAMSTA ROCKS WELL TOO!!

Soft Did The Light

2006-03-01T11:08:10Z

want to go to bed
put it in my head

soft did the light
the sun went down tonight

wasted is the day
nothing is okay

everything's okay
I close my mind and say

forgotten rotten soul
I, though young, am old

a sound of music calls
my mind it slowly falls

run away my heart
a mulligan from the start

and the day it fades
anger sadness rage

oh i try to sleep
but bloody thoughts they creep

fullness of the night
life will be all right

so the cancers say
but they don't have the day

whisper silent cry
oh to sleep I try

put it somewhere else
perhaps you'll find yourself

and so goes the year
life goes on I fear